In This Life...

We have certain responsibiles.
One out of those responsibility is school, then comes family, friends, etc...

I am so incredible bad at all of these. I find it so hard to be optimistic. You know how they say that people see everything in black and white and that you should watch the gray areas as well? For me it's all in black , there is no white or gray. It feels horrible and I feel sorry for people who tend to hang out with me. I've started writing in a private diary, where I write out all my frustration. There I also started my rank better and worse qualitys. These past 2 years I have been feeling relly horrible with my migraines but at the same time I've gotten a little better at seeing things in white too. Right now, I have days when I want to jump off a bridge... I actually feel that bad. I actually don’t know why I'm writing this, but it's so awful when people don’t understand how you feel. Or the absolute most horrible is when people do not believe in you and think you only say that you feel horribly is to avoid school.

I feel myself slowly slipping away from more and more friends. It's something I'm incredibly sorry about. Especially friends I've had for years.

I really do not know where I'm going with this post. Guess I'm tired of being misunderstood. I swear, I actually try. But some days it's easier to pull the covers over your head and hide for a while than to try to fight the world, who is against you. I will fight on, first and formost for my self.. I promise
A smile can hide a thousand tears.
This is one of my favorite pictures. I think this photo is from 2011, not quite sure. I was feeling so much better during that time (when the picture is taken) than I do today, but I’ll keep on figting.

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